Mood:Sickly
Topic: I'm not sure
S.O.C.:"Faithless" by Injected
It works!!! ::laugh truimphantly:: My dad fixed it my computer works!!!! Praise onto my father!
::mood falls to normal::
Anyway...how is everyone? Good I hope...I'm sitting here head swelling with negative informatin ready to vomit.
Does anyone think I'm just a little too emotional? I've felt that way for a while now. I don't take combinations of emotion well they make me weak or sick. Today was kinda hard on me...I did a lot of things I probably shouldn't have done today...I probably shoulda waited but I'd like to bleed all at once you know. I went to places that I'd never been to without Daniel...classes and such. I talked to his friends...lol they treated me like a widow or something but they all had the same look...they were sad and tired but even more than that they looked lost...That's probably what hurt most of all more than anything...Torhen...who takes so much pride in his hair hadn't bothered to style it....Judah with his 10 pockets and great organization...couldn't find anything...that was the hardest part...his boys, his kids that he took such good care of...all so very lost.
::Drastic change of subject::
Music always sounds a thousand times better when I'm with Lisette. As we left the BPC all of the cheerleaders were all ahead of us...all except Ashley Boyd. Eventually she passed us but then Lisette started to speed up and pass them one by one. It felt good to go fast to just run and not look back. It was even better to run with the stereo blairing, making the doors vibrate, forcing me to yell so Lisette can hear me. It feels good to run...like the wind, a squall, a gale, run then with her because I can't do it of my own accord...I'm not a runner not really...but it was nice to pretend...
Topic: I'm not sure
S.O.C.:"Faithless" by Injected
It works!!! ::laugh truimphantly:: My dad fixed it my computer works!!!! Praise onto my father!
::mood falls to normal::
Anyway...how is everyone? Good I hope...I'm sitting here head swelling with negative informatin ready to vomit.
Does anyone think I'm just a little too emotional? I've felt that way for a while now. I don't take combinations of emotion well they make me weak or sick. Today was kinda hard on me...I did a lot of things I probably shouldn't have done today...I probably shoulda waited but I'd like to bleed all at once you know. I went to places that I'd never been to without Daniel...classes and such. I talked to his friends...lol they treated me like a widow or something but they all had the same look...they were sad and tired but even more than that they looked lost...That's probably what hurt most of all more than anything...Torhen...who takes so much pride in his hair hadn't bothered to style it....Judah with his 10 pockets and great organization...couldn't find anything...that was the hardest part...his boys, his kids that he took such good care of...all so very lost.
::Drastic change of subject::
Music always sounds a thousand times better when I'm with Lisette. As we left the BPC all of the cheerleaders were all ahead of us...all except Ashley Boyd. Eventually she passed us but then Lisette started to speed up and pass them one by one. It felt good to go fast to just run and not look back. It was even better to run with the stereo blairing, making the doors vibrate, forcing me to yell so Lisette can hear me. It feels good to run...like the wind, a squall, a gale, run then with her because I can't do it of my own accord...I'm not a runner not really...but it was nice to pretend...
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